Today marks the half-way point of our journey around the country; if not by counting the actual number of days that we’ll spend on the road, but that we arrived today at our second of two stops in Colorado before heading back East. These last few days we’ve in Steamboat Springs for our vacation portion of the trip, and now we’re in Colorado Springs at Mission Training International for our debrief.
Driving out to Steamboat, we weren’t really sure what our days there would be like. We weren’t sure what there was to do there, or if we would spend much time with the people we know there; we just wanted it to be a time to relax, enjoy not being in the car, and spend time with family. It turned out to be an amazing few days and an absolute blessing that we had the chance to make it out there. Steamboat Springs to us felt so much like home. It looks a lot like the hills of Slovakia that we’ve lived in for the last 4.5 years, it’s a small town, which is so comfortable to us… a far cry from Atlanta that, to us, feels so foreign after living in Zilina for so long, tons of young families live there and there are nice parks and playgrounds for the kids, and there are places to hike everywhere with beautiful views, streams, and waterfalls. And the skiing would be a nice bonus but, of course, we couldn’t do much of that in July. We were only there for a couple days, but if a good job there were to come up… I’d consider it. Seriously. On top of that, we met some great new friends and spent some incredible time with family.
As for our debrief course, we’re not really sure what to expect of this either. In all honesty, driving to the training center today, I realized how much I’m not looking forward to it. I hadn’t given it much thought up to that point, but I just feel like I’ve talked too much already about how I’m feeling about being back, and I’m not all that excited about doing more of it with people I don’t know. Does that sound cynical? I’m sure it comes across that way, but I really don’t mean for it to. The Lord gave me clarity to return to the States, but has chosen to withhold the passion and excitement for the future that often comes with clarity. So I guess it’s the pride in me that really doesn’t want somebody else to help me process through my apathy. Maybe it’s that I feel like I’m still in process of accepting that I moved away from home, so when I see the course name of “Debriefing and Renewal”, “debrief” sounds a bit premature and “renewal” just sounds a bit churchy. So it’s first impression to me just sounded a little inappropriate for where I’m at. But that’s just where I’m at.
Debriefing and Renewal, DAR. Ironically, the word “dar” in Slovak means “gift.” After my bout of cynicism in the car, I walked into the orientation session this evening and that word “DAR” written on the notebooks hit me pretty hard. Deep down I desperately want this week to be a gift. Coming back, and now being back, has been pretty hard. Painful at times. But the Lord knows how to give great gifts. I received countless gifts over the past few years, many of them I’m having a hard time letting go of. But I know the same God that has given those gifts in the past, is able to continue providing in the future.